When I grow up...

When I was little I wanted to reach for the stars...

I wanted to really BE something...

I knew I wanted to be a wife to a handsome man...

I knew I wanted to be a mom... I sang the song "When I grow up I want to be a mother...and have a family... 1 little, 2 little , 3 little babies of my own."

As time went on I thought I wanted to be a Marine Biologist because they got to work with dolphins... then a rock star... then a dance teacher...then a Solid Gold dancer...

I thought I wanted to be a mortician and follow in the daddy's footsteps...

I went to high school and college and decided I liked English and History and teaching...

1+1+1=3 !

I found my handsome man

& started having babies

I became a high school teacher and taught for 10 years.

Then I decided I wanted to just be a mom...

This is really what I want.. this is the best job ever!

My babies are getting big & are all in school

Sometimes I think I would like to be an aesthetician and give facials (pick zits for money)...

Somedays I like to sit and blog all day...

Somedays I like to sew or paint or play with my pictures...

I want a room of my own that I can use to create whatever I want!

I really like to entertain and throw parties.... I like my life to be a party!

It is crazy that sometimes I still wonder what I want to be when I grow up!

Will I ever grow up?

I am trying to find my motivation!

I am trying to find my motivation...

Do I sound like a famous actor trying to "get into" my next role...well I'm not! I am a housemom that is trying to conquer my next task... and not getting very far! I know I am an adrenaline junkie ( someone who needs urgency to get things done), but lately I have had a hard time getting into doing anything...sure, I have been making aprons and stars and glittering things, but I think all of that is just to try to glitter over other things! What are these "other things"? I don't even know! I just know that something is out of whack and it is probably just me! I need to step back, take a deep breath and work it out! Here is how pathetic I have been... I have been upset about putting some of my Boot Camp weight back on! Last night I watched my DVR'ed "The Biggest Loser" WHILE eating a cinnamon roll! And the worst thing is... I was mad I only had one! That isn't good. Maybe I am tired from my party at Tonia's, maybe I am not medicated nearly enough, maybe I am lazy and just need to suck it up and clean my house, maybe I am just bored! Who knows! I know the post I should be posting is "Thankful Thursday" because there are ALOT of people who have it ALOT worse than I...but we'll postpone that for another day... I know this was probably sad and yucky to read... so sorry. We'll see what tomorrow brings... I might be back on cloud 9... I'm a little crazy... I know!

I've got BIG plans!

Okay.. so today is Tuesday, but it feels like Monday, and I have got big plans! Last week was the first week of school so I indulged in a little bit of "me" time. Well I have danced all night now I need to pay the fiddler... I have got things to do. I know that one difference between successful people and... well those that don't quite get their crap done (me) is the ability to write their goals down. I am trying to take a page out of Tanja's book and make a list, but most importantly stick to it and check the items off my list. I figure if I actaully write it out loud then I might be held accountable for it. SO- here it is... MY LIST...

(This was a handy little thing from superstickies... Kindof a fun idea I got from Kami)

Here is the run-down...I have got to make a few aprons... 1 for an apron swap I entered online from Apronista, 1 for a bridal shower, and 1 for Halloween ( a gift to send early). I have GOT to organize my pantry... it is a disaster... and then the third thing on the list is Party with VIV- Yes Viv is coming to town and we are going to have a ball. So I have got to organize my time so I work smart, not hard. I have got a lot to do before the party queen hits town this-afternoon. I will post some photos of my progress. I am trying to get my crap together and be a disciplined adult. We'll see how long that lasts.

I want this to be ME!

I really do like being domestic... and I really want to look like this while being domestic. I want the pose, the fabulous outfit, the hairdo, the jewelry AND the apron. I can feel the need to entertain coming on. It is one of my favorite things to do...throw a fabulous party. I think soon I will have a party. It sound fun! As for right now I need to take myself in all my ponytail and workout clothes glamour to the laundry room to get some work done. I really would like to be like June Cleaver! Does she really exist? I am going for Glamour... I've just got to get a few things done first!